august 8 2011

i hate life.

i just can't take anymore. i know i say that all the time but this time i am not kidding. i am done. so here i write my suicide note :


i never knew why people hated me until these last couple of years. my look the music i listen to. i didn't think it mattered but i guess it does to preps. i was always alone and i still am, just because im emo and listen to screamo and stuff dosen't mean im different but i guess i was.

living with my dad is a nightmare. this is the main reason im going. the fights for no reason the yelling for nothing the bruses. im done. thats why i cut. is because im lonely worthless filthy unseen. i just wish it would be better but that never happened.

now before i end this i wish that my sister cloey will countine my blogging. with her life stories and her dreams.

im sorry for leaving you guys like this but i just got to go. but remember NEVER GIVE IN <3

goodbye......

august 2 2011

another day of nothing. just fight after fight. over nothing really. i just ont know why we do this all the time. im the "invisable one" unless i wanted. grr why why why!!!!!!!!!!!

it would of bein a good day but no it had to be a horiable one. sometimes i feel like i should just go and see what happens. but i couldn't cause im not even alowed out of the house unless we are all going somewhere or if i have to go check mail. i wonder why.